oh how i want to fly. fly fly fly. fly away from here. the blue. its all that blue. its like the sky its like all those beautiful things that i so badly want to be a part of. i really dont want to be here anymore. what more is there? theres a tear, and inhale, a giggle, a trip. i just want to leave for awhile. into the sky. fly. maybe its the fact that theres no people. no people to make you feel any which way. all alone. in the sky. salty tears arent as soft as the rains tears. if i were in the sky i could cry all i wanted and nobody would ever know. nobody would ever know anything. they wouldnt know me. i would be untouched. i would know nothing. yet i would know absolutely everything. if i were a rain drop i could shine and sparkly and bobbled and wobble and soar and make people happy and make people angry all at the same time. oh it would to fun to splash like there is nothing in this world. oh i wish i could just fly. i dont think ill ever find someone that i like and they like me back the same amount. maybe im meant to be alone all my life. alone. oh its a scary thought. maybe i should get comfortable. which reminds me to run away from you. because you dont want me and i really dont want to be a burden and i really dont want to get in your way of moving on. oh and now where do i go. oh jesus what do i do. i cant remember the last time someone hugged me to comfort me. i remember when emilys mom did. and it made me cry more because i dont think id ever been treated like that. oh how i pity myself. itll make you barf on me because im a miserable human being just like the rest. maybe its just hormones. but ive never felt so utterly alone like im in a class bubble like i do now. maybe no one can touch me.