i had slept 3 hours in the past two days, and now im up again at 9 fucking 30 in the morning. man oh man. so things have been going better i think. emily and i went to the hot hot heat show which was pretty fucking cool. i swear to god that guy has so much fucking energy. so afterwards we "bonded" heh. well, we did some drooogs that caused an awful hangover... but theres only one way to get rid of a hangover... do more! so things have been okay. i was cool at school. not cringing at my stomache every second. last night emily spent the night. we smoked this nice ass bud and then sat in front of my speakers to my stereo with candles listening to bob marley and then the violent femmes. lots of wax pooring on skin. candles are way fun. emily just informed me that we sat there for 3 hours. holy shit. and then she told me that my mom walked in this morning looking for me. and we have bud and pipes everywhere. anyways, we listened to bob. with insense. i cried! it feels really fucking cool to cry when ur stoned. it was out of happiness or something like that though so its cool. well does anyone remember when i thought for real that bob was god? i really did. and then i thought that was dumb. but you know what? i think he's my god. we all have different gods, if any, and hes mine. no joke. and im not stoned right now. i have lots of fucking respect for him and for a while i would have felt so guilty just because of him if i had done anything else besides bud, especially with his cd case present. yeah. when i get stoned i pray to god. i dont know how to pray but i listen to his music. and there shouldnt be allowed gods that cant make really fucking good music. thats disgusting. so now i feel dumb for telling you guys this. but last night was cool. and i fucking love the violent femmes and bob marley. i tended to stare at emily the whole fucking time. i thought it was really fucking interesting. i kept seeing her from someone that doesn't know her's point of view. and i was like "wow. your so fucking hot. ive gotten used to how hot you are. but your hot." and shit like that. i created a whole movie thing out of her face. heh. i love marijuana. i think ill be off now. and pray to the lord jesus christ (wtf?) that i can go tonight. ps. please make my mouth not dry.