argh. so frustrated. today i told emily that desiree had a crush on a girl. hehe. how exciting, huh? and then she says "zoë has a crush on a girl too" i asked who but she wouldnt tell. does anyone know how that makes me feel? it really bugs me. because before, id think "its ok. she doesnt like girls so its not like she doesnt like you. shes just not like that." and there was no chance whatsoever of anything ever happening with us. and now its... argh. possible for her to like girls. and it makes me feel like... yuck. frustrating because theres more of a possibility that she could ever like me.. but upset cuz she doesnt. more frustrated than upset tho. i really dont care that she doesnt like me that much. its just knowing she could... argh. totally sucks. maybe emily lied. id die if she lied. maybe itd make my day. i dont know. i just wont take it for complete truth right now. cuz its driving me crazy. oh god. i wish i didnt have this huge thing for her. sucks majorly.