i finally understand religion. and god. i have spent a long 2 weeks where all i could think about was all that shit about god. and i finally understand it. i swear, questions about it come up wherever i go. and i finally have answers. i know what it is. it is a belief. not a belief in a person, such as "so and so is REAL" but more like "i believe in you" like you would believe in your bestfriend who is going to master some skill. you trust in them. its someone that does not make the rules for your life, but you interpret them. there are certain things that you would feel you would dissapoint them if you did, and feel guilty. god is not an object. not a man. not a person. not anything. it is an idea. and everyone has different ideas. therefore, i am sure that not everyone has the same god. if they even find the one who they believe in. the one you believe in could be someone like a painter. or anyone. i cannot believe i just wrote about god. i guess im excited to be an atheist and then finally understand it. i still think a lot of religion is a bunch of bull shit. but i knew there had to be a reason for it to last so long. yep. i, caitlin jean the atheist queen, understands religion. i think i will make an effort to understand a new thing as much as i can. i need a new topic...