You know that feeling you get as you walk away from a goodbye kiss? I usually get this overwhelming feeling that makes me cover my mouth and wonder what I just did. Last night I got the same exact feeling... except with the opposite reason: No goodbye kiss. I'm so bad at taking the initiative so I just.. don't. As I stepped up the first few steps I got the urge to pull a cliche movie stunt and turn around and run after him. But come on, that would have been silly. Instead I just let that overwhelming feeling take over me and cause me to cover my mouth and wonder what I just did. I must have had countless dreams about that moment last night. Well, at least I no longer have to measure things. I like things the way they are, and I'm not going to ruin them by wondering what they are. It's 11:35 AM. I should be walking to the bank pretty soon. Vanessa will show up at my house, we'll get ready, we'll leave to the mall. I can't wait to spend as much money as I damn well please. Ooooh and I get to be nerdy today. I made sure Ellison was my study-buddy and so we're going to the library after work to do math homework. =)