Rashonda really knows how to make a girl happy. Glow sticks, fabulous presents, special people all around broadening Caitlin's spectrum of love and understanding. So, I did over do it a little bit. And I can't remember anything around that time period, but it's okay. Because I still had fun. Even this morning I had fun. I bonded with Scott. He's way cool. And he'll never like me as a girlfriend. Relieving. I like being close with people, but not if it has to exceed past a friendship. I'm not really down with anything more. I don't really know how I feel about my lover. But I'm not going to find out by simply wondering, so I guess it's not a big deal. I'm pretty sure I turned him off a great deal just because I'm a partier. But I would never be able to get too close with anyone who wasn't down with partying. I have a different set of values from him. I think partying is an important part of my life as a teenager, so I don't feel guilty. And he's not going to make me either. I have a really strong sense of self right now. I feel strong willed, empowerd. Maybe it's from being around a couple of lost boys for so long. I almost got tired of them because so they're so unstable. But I still like them. Good kids. Goood. I really like that I feel like I have a really good friend now. We really connected. I love connecting. I can't stop thinking about how well we got along, it's a really nice feeling.