a little bit scared... but i dont think ill ever be any more ready. hoping someone will stand by me for awhile... but ill live if i have to do it on my own. im feeling a little bit gray. transition gray. im still trying to keep a positive outlook. i think im being fairly strong. monday marks the day when things will get harder. i feel like im conditioning myself for whats to come. oooh man this is tough. im just praying that i can be strong.. even though i dont pray. on another note, has anyone noticed how theres tons of commercials on tv with fairytale themes? there tampon ones and lotion ones and all that good stuff. im still up to being rashonda and fanessas little experiment, but im sooo lazy! ive got to clean this jungle and take a shower and find a ride... and i just cant manage to turn off britney's behind the music again! oh man... that girl's so cool.