i went to desirees house afterschool today. is at in her room for a half an hour looking at things because she wasnt home yet. then she came home. we hugged. we talked. and oh my golly do i miss that girl. she seriously is the best. i could be having the worst life in the whole entire world and then we hug and... whatever. its all about caitlin and dezi now. i have the whole week of halloween off. it will be just like summer. oh fuck. we had the best summer. she reminded me of this one time when we got way baked... and i had forgotten about everything. crazy shit, man. today my dad brought home FOUR movies! he got them from work and guess what i own?? SIXTEEN CANDLES! aaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddd THE BREAKFAST CLUB! Holy shit, huh? also, weird science and three o'clock high but i havent seen those cuz im a loser. im oh so happy about this. i miss desiree so much. im going to try and spend the night at her house friday night. i forgot my trig book at her class. oh no! holy cucamunga. i love drama. it was so much fun today. the poets all got to practice our parts. and wow. yes. it was fun. today is 9/11. do i care? not much. i really hated 9/11 because so many people here where making a huge fucking deal and it didnt even effect them. they over exagerated. that weird thing where they enjoy having a reason to freak out. and all the fucking flags. yeah, im not patriotic. it bugged the shit out of me. today i didnt care either. i said, "wow, its 9/11, ive been a member of the gym for a whole year and gained 20 lbs!" yeah, that was my reaction. in history we watched some "video" which was music to pictures. i must say, it did kinda touch me. but my names caitlin and its kinda corny to say that, so i still am not that sad. people jumping out of the buildings kinda got to me. i actually almost cried. but no way jose i dont do that. hmm... emily. yes. big part of my life that i guess i should talk about. am i getting tired? a little stuffy in here? yeah. im getting slightly overwhelmed. i mean, i dont dislike hanging out with her at lunch and such, its just that everything i do i feel like she tries to turn it into me hating her. and it seems like we just havent been getting along lately. i need desiree. that girls is the best. i love best friends.