I can't believe that one person that I'm not even with can have so much impact on my life. I write about him all the time. Talk about him all the time. When I see him, he motivates me to do good things. Not good things like homework, but real things. Like playing music and making myself happy and thinking and writting. I can feel us moving towards a revolution and I'm not pushing. I still can't believe how real it is. How we're always on the same level, even though it's always accelerating. How he's the most beautiful, special boy. How he's making something bloom inside of me. I can feel the creativity inside me ripening and changing colors. I can feel all of my desires coming true. I'm trying not to look too far ahead... I don't know where this will go. But I know it will be wonderful no matter how big it gets.