its 322 and im at emilys house. i cant remember too well last night at rashondas. i remember that becca was way cute. and i almost walked to the beach before i realized that i might die if i went there. and i also almost walked to emilys house. good thing i didnt. right now im feeling.... like i spent 3 days getting way fucked up over and over again. im not sure exactly how that feels. it feels like... no i dont want more fucked up. yes i want to be normal. and yes i really do hate normalcy consisting of school and annoying people with blond hair. i know what i want. im tired of every breathing thing right no except emily. i have a new buddy. i didnt enjoy desiree last night. she moved so fucking much and ruined my high when i was with her. i feel like we had nothing in common anymore. and i wished that i had brought emily to chill back with. this computer screen is so white that i think im going to leave. i want a hug. bye bye