i have that feeling like i know everything so well that maybe i dont know anything. where it feels like this has all happened before. and it is all too normal. were there is no one in the world to talk to and even if there was thered be nothing to talk about. where i dont care about my weight because ill end up covering it up anyways. where all i want is those really pretty unheard of songs and really pretty unheard of movies. i feel like this mood was normal for years before it changed. and here it is again. and i have no friends and i dont care about anyone and how the fuck am i getting by? i wish there were people interested enough to have conversations. i miss conversations.