I really don't like highschool. Or anyone in highschool for that matter. And yes, I do keep saying this, but I keep thinking that there must be something wrong with me that I need to fix and not school. Is it wrong to think that way? I think, "It can't be that bad, everyone else can stand it" and "You're going to have to learn to deal with things like this; just wait until you have a nine to five job." and more importantly, "This is a challenge that I am losing. I need to be strong enough to beat whatever's troubling me." Which brings me to the question: Is the problem highschool or me? When I start to believe that the problem is me, that I need to accept that I'm here, I begin to be okay with the idea of these people. And that's what's been happening these last few weeks. Probably starting with Zach. I begin to talk to school students more often, I become closer and closer to them and soon enough they are almost like friends. And then when I take a step back I think that it is terribly depressing that I'm okay with being friends with them. Because they are such insignificant stupid boring people and I am sinking to their level! I feel myself start to lose my creativity, personality, style. Everything that makes me special and unique and makes me who I am begins to disappear when I accept these people. They're turning me into something I hate. I changed my English class thinking that would make things better. And it did for a few days. And now it all feels terrible again. Let's not forget the fact that I am also on myspace now. And sign online everyday. I used to come online every few days, every now and then, because it is so insignificant and I have much better things to do. Now what's happened to me. "Tell me what the problem is and I will find the remedy."