I've a fear of having a dull life. A fear of the years passing without anything happening. A fear of doing nothing with all that I have. I feel like I have a responsibility to do something great, because I know I'm smart, I know I'm humane, and I know that I've been born into privelage. I saw An Inconvenient Truth today (go see it) and in the end they're telling me how I just need to, you know, stop driving so much and get a better car, etc, etc. And I thinking, Jesus Christ tell me something more I can do! I would do huge things to change things if I only knew how! I think that's true of more people than I think. If we could only make it easier to help, people would do it. And I don't mean so they have to exert less energy, but there should be programs out there which make it easier for people to find a way to do something good! And one of the previews we saw was for a new John Lennon documentary which looks kind of awesome. And him talking about the war, speaking out, etc, etc. And I thought about all those kids I see who are so OBSESSED with the 60s, the 70s, with all that angsty youth being so powerful and artistic and wonderful. And it was! But how depressing is it too think of a time when everyone was so hopeful, when the times they were a changin and going somewhere good. And now look where we are. Isn't that disappointing?!? And why should we do nothing about it?? Why let it all go backwards, why can't we move a whole country into action? There are plenty of reasons to care, plenty of causes to upset you, why are we stuck in complacency? (is that even the right word?) I wish I would get more angry. And then run away to another country/city like I dream of all the time. And do something outrageous. I want to do something outrageous. No, I just want to live! Like, to really, really live. To be impacted and to make an impact. To make it all worthwhile. Stupid passage of time.