I spent all day Monday with Ellison and have been recovering for the last two days. This could take a whole week. I can't stand him at all anymore, I am completely worn out on Ellison. I can't stand his uncomfortable shuffles and glances at school and I can't stand his constant inquiries about what I'm doing and when we're going to hang out and if there's anything wrong with me. I've been ignoring a lot of the things he says, and so he thinks I'm busy with school work. Aannd oh my god leave me alone. I spend everyday in the library so as to avoid him, and no I don't want to hang out with you this weekend and please stop whinning about you being so desperate to talk to me about nothing and aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm frustrated. I hung out with EmilyQ afterschool today. It was nice. She's very in touch and open with her emotions. I like that. Perhaps we'll do it again, but until then I'm going to stuff myself with books and smart people and nott youuuu ellison. God I'm terrible. But ughhhhhhhhhhhhh.