my stonertude has gotten to an all time loser point. today was the first day that i smoked to run away from something else. it was also the first day i smoked at school. i feel so low. not to mention, im zapped of energy. i need sleep, i need to lay off the weed just a little. a gram a week is expensive in my terms. cut back, just for partying. partying starts on friday. niiiice, set down some rules, caitlin. i felt horrible today. i dont know what to say. mystery opened up my eyes. im not sure if thats good or bad, but i felt terrible at the time. im a whimp. tuesday was tons of fun. gabe is rad. really. i hope we hang out again. auditions are real fun too. brianne and i are the best duo ever. we have the same parts. fun... im going to try to be happy again. im so zapped of energy that ive been almost dead at times. maybe i havent. thats just what im seeing right now. i always make sure to have a crush werever i go. i dont know why, maybe its comforting. im going to be single for such a long time. no pudge brownies are delish.