So I watched a lot of My So-Called Life, lots of Degrassi, and then looked around at my messy room and realized I was feeling like shit. Not to mention I had seen quite a bit of A Walk to Remember earlier. So, I decided I needed to think. On my own. And that I needed to move. I went for a jog. I didn't think that much because I had music going. But I ran a lot, and looked at the sky a lot, and when I came home, I hung out with my parents and the neighbors. Yes, hung out. After dinner my dad and I just sat across the table from each other starring and he began talking and.... he said we're a lot alike. I often hear that we're the same person. Which I don't mind because I don't know my dad that well. Basically he gave me hope for myself. He made me feel comfortable as myself again. And I know that he really understands. He had earlier told our neighbor some things about me. And everything he says is the most truthful thing I've ever heard. And it was wonderful. "She has talent, a lot of talent, she doesn't necessarily know what it is or how to use it, but she's got it." Hearing people talk about you is selfishly good. I think it's actually theraputic sometimes. Basically, I had a theraputic night. And I understand so much of what's to come now, and what's already come. And I am really excited to experience. Whatever happens to roll around next I'm looking forward to. Oh yeah, and I decided that I'll wait in line for the next relationship to come along. I am in no rush. And I also decided that when I don't think about what's right, it comes out better. I trust my thoughts.