so wats been going on... been spending *more* time with emily. i really need to do my report. fuckdamnitshitholemotherfucker. that sucks ass. 2 1/2 days to do a katrillion assignments.... and i left all my papers at emilys. holy fucking shit i dont know what to do. i fucking need those papers. maybe she can scan them for me and then email them to me. i really hope so. sex? sex was absolutely amazing. i almost sneezed my vagina off this morning. and last night? yes i am still stoked about how great last night was. even though before her house i got in a fight with a 6 year old boy and didnt want to say sorry. i swear to god im so fucking immature. theres NOO way i cud ever have kids! emily gets mad at me or something like that for this, but i dont know what to say. id be a bad mom, so im not gonna have kids. i got digital cable. woohoo? but i have noggin! i think that just made my life complete. 90s nickelodean (sp?) shows are finally back in my life. this is the greatest. emily and i are at 10 months. can you fucking believe it? im so stoked. i wonder what we should do on our october 4th. its a saturday :-D as for my body? im okay. i read emilys PRIVATE diary at her house (ooooh!) but she let me. and well, yeah, it was really nice just to see exactly how she feels. she told me i wasnt aloud to get mad, and i kept telling myself that, so i didnt get mad. it was honest, it was true, and i couldnt ask for anything more. i realize that i feel like shit because i havent worked out in forever. and that doesnt help. but im not unhappy with my body so much anymore. i mean, its just fine the way it is. even though my stomach HAS grown to a larger extent. im afraid to eat because i get sick everytime i do. so ive been eating better since this morning. i want more food though. im fucking hungry. but i shouldnt eat yet. i just ate some blueberries. so im off. i need to watch some noggin... hehehehe hehehehehe hehehehehehe heheheheheheHE!