This picture made my confidence rise, made me feel hot, made me feel awesome, comfortable, etc. And then I realized that I have gotten increasingly larger. And larger. And larger. Since then. I want to reverse it all and be that hottie bo bottie that was still so uncomfortable with her body that was so babamm baby take that! Strictly speaking we can strictly diet but strictly speaking I'm more comfortable than I've been with my body since? Last year. Lets reverse it. Just a little. Strictly speaking again I strictly need to eat smaller portions and restrict my intake and eat when hungry ONLY and continue this running thing which already makes me hotter and maybe? Maybe baby maybelline Ill stock up on some of that wonder drug oh I wonder! Where my health went after I traded it for something so superficial! But I just might. And why? Because it feels so good so good so good to look so feel so nice in that right size. Plus the big PROM is coming up (dateless, mind you, and praying for this one boy who I am realizing is totally PERFECT (at least shes perfect for him) for Becca). Hmm so I wanna look hot I wanna be hot but WHAT if I don't get a date, don't manage to snag him, lose my confidence, fall on the floor and crawll sadly away into NO PROM land. But birthday parties are coming up. I'll invite him to Jammy's I'll invite him to mine I will WOW him (and not throw up) and then MAYBE he'll be my date in tacky gold shoes.