I need saturdays. I don't get one until spring break, and then not again after that. I came home "sick" today because I obviously can't handle a 7 day work week. And I want to take tap dancing classes and apply for scholarships and do all these over-achiever things but good lord where would I find the time? Or the energy? Or the emotional strength? I'm so emotionally sensitive that I'm afraid I'll snap. Oh lord, give me tha power! I work so much that I eat as a means of quick relaxation. And now I kind of hate myself + the 5 pounds of meat and bread I ate today. And sometimes I go shopping and spend all of my savings instead of eating. So now I consume like crazy even though I hate consumerist culture. I just want to go to college and have a Saturday to sleep in. PS I wore that slip on new years