Ugh I'm tired of myself. Of me repeating the same mistakes and of me feeling guilty so often. I want to begin doing nothing that would make me feel guilty. A guilt-free life. Sorry, food, that would mean I would have to watch out for you a little more. And I'd have to clean my room and start running. All these things that I know I need to do yet don't really have the motivation to do them. Ugh. I need motivation. Oh well. I got icecream today (icecream somehow never makes me feel guilty) and Ellison is one of the greatest people to be friends with. You guys should all befriend him, because he's wonderful. And he's Asian and crafty as fuck. (You should have seen the pipe me managed to make today when we were in shear dispair.) I'm so proud of his Asian-tech-savvy-ness.