I wish there was a way to express gestures online. Like I said, I find myself wordless. I find my body a livewire, thrumming with energy--she wants to twist and writhe and leap into the air! She wants to rub a shoulder like a cat against the doorframe and kick a heel into the air, she begs to toss her hair back and let the proud thrust of her chin say all these things for her, she wants, she wants, but she can't.