As whiny as it sounds, right now I would give anything not to have all that I do. As pathetic as it sounds, right about now I wish I'd never met you. As selfishly vain as it sounds, right about now I would give anything for someone to hold me and tell me nice things about myself. I feel terrible. I hate the holidays. Sometimes. Maybe I should call Brett or something. (Yeah, I'm THAT desperate.) NO, I'm NOT! Thats just dumb, Lili. Stop being stupid. Boys don't matter. Focus on your grades. Work. Ride. Eat. Sleep. Oh yeah and another audition that i didnt make. Chalk one up for the Plotkinmeister. Someone tell me something about how (insert famous actor/actresses name here) had (insert number) failed auditions before they got their dream.