there are some days i dont even want to pick up the phone for fear of who may say what on the other line. on those days i creep around my world silently, fearfully, shaking and trembling to think that there are Some Things I just cannot control. I want to close my eyes and let myself choke, for once. For once, I want to safely be able to have absolutely nothing to say, have no solution, have no way out...so that maybe once, just maybe, I could get someone to save me.