I think my body's tired of pretending. It wants to sink into that delicious darkness of mind and body and just evaporate into oblivion, I think. I'm losing my mind. For some reason, I feel like sobbing. Or throwing myself off a building. I don't know why. Something about me just struck my head as painfully funny, I think. I am so, so messed up in the head. I can't keep acting. I'm killing myself slowly. I need to stop, find a way out. Dear God, help me.