oh lordy. I feel beautiful. --- Today Sarah showed up on my front doorstep with, I'm not kidding, a purple bouquet and a card. She said she didn't want me to feel bad because my days have been sucking and won't I please smile? And then she hugged me and helped me find a vase for my flowers and told me not to cry because life gets better in college, she hears. What a friend. You're awesome, Sarah Marie. I wonder if she drove herself, in her new car. She doesn't even have her license yet, so how? I cried. I just can't even explain. But I cried and I hugged her and I hugged her and cried. She said not to because that's kind of missing the whole point, and go on and smile already! :P I feel so, so loved. Like nothing, everything, something is right or wrong or left to right or it doesn't matter about you and me and us because there will always, always be somebody who loves you and says please, please mon amie, please smile, because when you're crying, it's so hard for me to be here when you are there and not be able to be your friend. -- Don lurvs me. He does. I haven't said anything because i feared to believe in it. But he does. I feel like i could fly fly fly fly fly away.