Only ashes

Sarah's was fun. OMG. We watched the first FY OVA. And...it...rocked...my...fucking...socks..off. I mean, how beautiful on the inside does someone have to be to write a storyline like that? I wish I knew what went on in Ms. Watase's head, I really do. Agghghg, I had this insane itching in my fingers to go and type out TIAJ at home again!! Nuriko is as hot as ever. Oh. He's so yummy. We also watched Millenuim actress, and were bawling like fruitcakes at the end of it. She gave me a beautiful trail of the painted ponies sculpture...looked like this: And a very, very touching card. *smiles* I heart her so much. My friends are so very dear to my heart...I don't think I show it enough, im always so afraid of contact, of getting in too deep. But with Sei, I'm safe. She's my bestest buddy. She's like...me, just not. I guess you could say we go together like yellow and blue. ah, i have to go study now. Characteristics of Living Organisms: 1.) Living things are all made of cells 2.) Living things all reproduce 3.) Living things are all based on a universal genetic code 4.) Living things all grow and develop 5.) Living things maintain homeostasis 6.) Living things obtain and use materials and energy 7.) Living things respond to their environment 8.) ...? Is there even an eighth one? Help! Help! Help! Blah. L'ecole est une ânerie. --- 8.) All living things change over time. ahahahah! --- [You and Others] Are you special? yes If yes, what makes you special? I'm pretty. And I think funny. o_O; And I'm conceited. If not, then why? I am special, I'm the only one, (the only one) like ME! What attracts you to the opposite (or same) sex? Nice hair. Nice face. Nice body. Nice clothes. That clever gleam in eyes. Nice smile. Shoes. hairstyle. some piercings are good. guys who are indifferent and care at the same time. Nice singing voices. Tallness. Strong arms. Good joke teller. Big word usage. oh yeah. those big words=sexy. *laughs* What do you think makes you appeal to others? i have nice eyes, i forgive easily, and i love wholeheartedly. feel the love. it radiates off of me like heat from the sun. but don't get too close, you'll singe your nostrils. =D Exactly what makes a person attractive? How I feel when I think about being next to them in a dark movie theater for two hours. Their kindness factor to others. politeness. cleverness. and prettyness. it's selfish, but i'm not going to lie. Do you feel comfortable in crowds? no Do you feel comfortable being touched (Hugged etc) by other people? depends on who they are. i always want my friends and family to touch me, to hug me. but if you're strange or i find you annoying (you may or may not know if i do) you'll know i don't like it because i emit severity rays, or something. i've been told my eyes get distant and i look like i'm about to snarl. Do you feel comfortable sharing possessions with others? depends. sei and I share stuff all the time. Mom and me too. And I share food with my horses (popsicles, carrots, brownies, Coke, etc...the 'I bite, you bite' rule!) and i share stuff with danni. because we're just like that. but it depends, i have to know them a long time. Do you feel comfortable trusting others? not really. I'm judgemental. I usually give you the yea or nay within five mins of meeting you. Who, or what, has been the biggest positive influence on your life? My horses. Who, or what, has been the biggest negative influence on your life? My past. Who has been the greatest support to you? myself. Who has been a hindrance or annoyance in your life? men. all men. i mean the ones not related to me. Do you find it easy to admit you're wrong? yes Do you find it easy to apologize? yes. i do it a lot. [Recent Things] What was the last dream you remember? Last night, at Sei's I dreamt that she and I were in TIAJ and some weird sappy shit with Riko and Tasuki happened and then i woke up reminding myself to never again watch FY before bed. What do you think that dream was trying to tell you? You have a screwed up life, and you will never meet a man as perfect as Nuriko. So get used to it and sleep all the time so you can fantasize. What was the last thing you said to someone? "oooh, mom, I know what sasha's gotten you for Christmas, and i'm not going to tell youuuuuu!" And the purpose for saying it? My brother put a little package under the tree and i asked what it was and he told me hence i was being silly for his benefit, because i like to make him smile. What was the last good deed you did for someone? washed the dishes What was the last bad thing you did to someone? lied When was the last time you smiled? with my mom just *now* Why did you smile? because she asked me if i could feel the good chi energizing me since she changed my room around, and i told her i felt the love with a smile. Who was the last friend you spoke to? Steffie What do you think of that friend? I think she's a little airheady. But oh how I heart her. SHe's a childhood friend, and i treasure that. [Reactions] How do you react to: A *adding the word heterosexual right here* couple being affectionate together: don't care A homosexual couple being affectionate together: don't care A sex scene on TV/Film: i usually don't watch. i don't like sex. i watch animal planet and cartoon network. sex makes me nervous. A person in tears before you: Lily cries with them. Lili looms above them and sneers at their misfortune and weakness. Someone being bullied/attacked:out of dead seriousness, i would fight. not that i've ever been in that situation, outside looking in. but God. I wish someone had done that for me. A tragedy or accident in the News: I worry if it's global or environmental. Some scandal on someone famous/important in the News: Don't care Charity advertisements (TV or otherwise): I feel kind of dirty on the inside and unchristianlike. Praise from friends/loved ones: I want more. right now. Insults from friends/loved ones: I get mad. Praise from strangers: unsureness. nervousness. shyness. flightiness. Insults from strangers: i get mad. [Opportunity] If the opportunity came, would you sooner: Travel to see a long lost old best friend, or a loved one: Best friend Go out partying all night or stay in at home: home Move to live in a new city, or live where you were raised: new city. i need constant change. and God. I need out of here. Date a celebrity, or stick with what you know: what I know. Start a career in music or within acting: acting Become rich or famous: rich. Live within a large house or small apartment: large house. i like glamour. i flourish in it. Marry young and live happily ever after, or have multiple fun flings forever: marry young, damnit. I want true love so bad it hurts. Become known for famous or infamous deeds: famous [Song Section] Name a song that reminds you of : Friendship: Play - Us against the world, Ayumi Hamasaki - Friend II Happiness: Lay me Down - Sophie B. Hawkins, Perfect Day - Hoku Love: As You Sleep - SOmething Corporate Lust/sex: We Fit Together - LMNT (or is it LFO? they all sound the same) Excitement: Only Ashes - Something Corporate, Jaded - Aerosmith (how ironic), Avril Lavigne stuff Anger: stuff by people who just screech or scream into the mike because i hate that, Linkin Park - Faint, or Points of Authority, or In The End Hate: Linkin Park - Faint, or Points of Authority, or In The End Revenge: Linkin Park - Faint, or Points of Authority, or In The End Worry/Anxiety: I will remember you Depression: I will remember you - ...um? Death: I will remember you, lol Life: clocks, coldplay. Will You-P.O.D.. Me and the Moon-Something Corporate And a song that: Cheers you up: Perfect Day- Hoku, Tokimeki no Doukasen, Ashita No Watashi O shinjitai Makes you depressed: I will remember you. my god. i cry every time i hear it. You dance to: i don't dance You play while travelling: depends on what i feel like. Reminds you of a loved one: anything BSB. my god. they are the kings of boy band music. i used to be so friggin obsessed with them. o_X Reminds you of yourself: Linkin Park - Faint, or Points of Authority, or In The End [The Future] What are you going to do after this? check my email What are you going to do tomorrow? sleep. study. lots of that, btw. bake cookies. What are your plans for the next five years? finish high school, start college. win lottery, get rich. =) What do you honestly think will happen in another five years? I don't know. I don't want to think about the future. It makes me nervous. And if i don't look at my feet i'll trip. Have you changed within the past five years? yessss Do you think you'll change within another five years? mayhaps What career did you want as a child?singer, actress, doctor, astronaut, writer, spy, doctor again, and now a large animal vet What career do you want now? A large animal veterinary doctor/surgeon Do you want to live to be 100? No. it'd make me jumpy and nervous, like i was cheating death. Do you believe in life after death or reincarnation? yes. with all my heart. [Finally] What do you want now? true love. A nuriko. How are you going to get/do it? I'll wait. I'll breathe. I'll call to him. What question do you wish you were asked? "Do you love me as much as I love you?" How would you answer that question? "Yes."
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no...i haven't been keeping much to date with my boys of NHOI. bad me. organisms.wee.um.