When I am with my horses, I am so, so happy. It's ridiculous. Nah. Sei got me a nuriko keychain. I was positively stunned. And by stunned I mean i sat there and then squealed so loud her parents asked us what was wrong. We watched the entire Fruits Basket collection last night until about five, and then we got up at eight and then changed and fell asleep on the floor in her art room. I'm so tired. I wanted to just turn my face into that carpet and smother myself to death. I'm so sick of pretending like I have to prove myself to anyone, like I'm not good enough to exist. Fuck that. And nothing has been allright!