I had a weird dream last night that I was getting married to PJ and we were in rehearsal so i went to the foyer for a second and Grant was there, and it was awkward because he didn't even kiss me, he just looked at me and touched my right hip and I knew that I couldn't go through with the wedding. Not at all. Except then I woke up and lay in the dark a long time trying to figure out why I had that dream and today in school all I could think of when his knee touched mine was how much I wanted to ask him stuff but I didn't and tried to act all normal except he asked for a hug at the end of class which was weird because he never does and im overinterpreting and I need to STOP! Then I went back to sleep and dreamt about swimming bears.