So I called up Jenny this morning and I was like "roach hunting?" No. "Flower making?" No. "Walking?" No. Then Leah. I hate roaches, Hanging out with Zach, and Already going with Zach. Emily's disappeared. Adelia has open studio. Chandler is just No all over the place. Nobody wants to hang out. Everyone's like "well, I'm going to be here, and you can come if you want"...but it's not fair! It's not, it really isn't. Why are all my friends here golds?! I belong in a thick stack of blues. A really thick, emotion-discussing stack of blues. I really hate how people tend to walk all over me, especially if I let them. I mean, come on, am I really THAT EASY?! I try so hard to make everyone happy and neutral, but when it comes down to something I want, no one's ever there to--well, no one's ever there! That really makes me mad. Oh boy, does it. The worst line EVER is "But I don't WANT to!" . I'm always just sitting there thinking "Ever thought how many proverbial times I "haven't wanted to""??? Actually, nobody probably has, but it's about time they started. it's about time we all started. What gets me going the most is how people never do stuff for each other for the heck of it aymore. It's always "what's in it for me?" and ugh, that really gets my goat. I swear it does! I went to the infirmary and they said they don't have to do the surgery. That's cool. I was pretty pleased. I don't like to see things attached to myself be cut open. In AgSci today some equine dentitian is coming to talk to us about aging horses. It should be exciting, but it's not like any of you care anyways. UGH. I can't get over this horrid irritation I have been feeling today. Everyone's just so...so....UGH!!!! They're just that. Everyone today is "UGH". Don't people ever listen to what they say?! Or is it always mememe and never ususus or theytheythey or youyouyou??? Maybe I'm just not doing a good enough job or something, being a good person. I should try harder, but some part of me just wants to spit in everyone's eye and go and play checkers by myself, since everybody always has something better to do. I'd give anything if someone just like, wanted to walk with me and talk about stuff. It doesn't even have to be in a seminar, I just want somebody who'll want what I want for a change. Is that awfully selfish of me? In other news, I got a letter. P.S.: While I'm here ranting, I hate it when people decide stuff that concerns me without telling me about it or including me in the decision. P.P.S: I also hate it when people plan right out from under me (e.g.: planning over an activity that was just me and that other person, and turning it into me, the other person, and seven of the other person's friends). Oh. And I dislike it when people waste my time.