Reminiscent of how I see my relationship with God sometimes. :/ And another thing: I am annoyed with the "christians" I know. Okay, just STOP LYING to yourselves. You are NOT Christians. Or, atleast, I guess you don't fit my freaking bill of what a Christian should be. Myabe i'm wrong and all, or maybe i read into the text too deeply or something, but Jesus didn't teach you to go around bullying other people into seeing it your way, or to kill people, or to smoke or drink or cuss (but go to church Sunday anyway). In fact Jesus was kind of a nice guy. I bet if Jesus were around now He and I would go out for food every once in a while. Him and me and Peter probably. We'd talk about world peace and shit like that, and we'd be cool and help people cross the street and give coins to beggars. What we WOULDNT do is threaten people with like heaven or hell. To put it in one of Lena's often used emoticons to me: ":/" Yeah. We'd pretty much be good people. We'd go to church and stuff, but we'd just love God and love everyone else and be kind and good. We wouldn't be hypocrites or jerks. I wish I really could be like that. I try, I guess, but it's hard. I know that one thing I'll NEVER find myself doing is that stupid trying-to-convert-your-friends-to-christianity-because-if-you-don't-you'll/they'll-go-to-hell thing. It's ridiculous. If God really is with all of us, and if He really is almighty, then he will find his own way eventually...won't he?. We're just--to put it lightly-stupid peons of someone's imagination. Not worth squat, no matter how importantly we strut around while we're alive. Ugh. I'm so annoyed with evangelism here. It just makes me upset. Instead of worrying about how stupid they are and how hypocritical and non-christian their own lives are, they spend their time stuffing their noses looking into other people's business. I personally don't care what religions other people follow. I think that they are fascinating and I like to listen to their ideas, i just ask them to listen to mine too, you know? I'm not so bad, I'm really not. And you can bet I'll never strangle you to death over whether or not you're going to hell. :/...!