I feel so abused. But so much better. My cool friend Joey says she can see me on Saturday and try to help me with my kidney problems. She totaly beleives in the positive energy and such. I love her. she told me to get a blessing so that there is positive energy flowing through me. I'm excited. I have to chug water like crazy. I'm praying tomorrow morning they wont stab me again. I hate needles. I despise them. Mum read me the story out of Luke about the woman who knew if she just touched Jesus's clothes she would be okay. *smiles* I like that a lot. Well, no matter what they do tomorrow at the doctors I'll be okay. Maybe I'll barf on them again.Or kick and scream. or runaway. chug water like no other tonight. SO I'll be hydrated enough. I hate being sick. I hate my stupid body. but...On a happier note. I really need the spirit right now. this whole past month and this one. I've felt so agg. depressed. So, I hope this will make me cloer. this whole zoning thing with Joey. mmm. I got the top part in our new song in percussion! I was feeling ambitious and independent in percussion today. And I drummed despite what the doctor said. the nurse balded me while ripping off the tape for the IV! gah. okay. anyways. theres been a lot of fires in cache valley tonight. odd. no one believes in fire...alarm...thingies. The end of the world is coming soon. we're all gonna die! run for your lives! Is what I yelled at landen.mmm, im so funny. hilarious. well, if we do all die... I hope landen is feeling better. He's so down. and not himself at all. He seems pretty confident with himself on the outside. but...I dont know. I love him like whoa. like the feeling I get when I pee. I love it. like the way a christmas tree smells. or they way I love spandex or chewing on rubber things. or the way i love looking at rainbows! Or flirting. I love him like i love Moulin Rouge and getting caught in the rain. like the feeling you get when (cough someone cough) pulls you outside just to dance and splash in the puddles. "storm clouds may gather and storms may collide, but i love you until the end of time." Why did the great guy come when I was 14? why oh why!? Landen, honey. be happy. okay. because. you'll miss out on so much if you arnt. and happiness isnt...being in love or crushing or peeing or drumming, DRUMMING. Sure, happiness is made up of these things. but its being okay with yourself and the things around you. you're a STUUUUUUUUUUUUUPENDUS guy. and I enjoy kissing you lucious lips. well, I did when that was 'legal' (psstt meet me behind the bush in an hour!) you've just got to be comfortable in your own skin. I'll pray for you! you're my best friend! c'mon! ** mmm. thanks Emmy for replying! I love you so ooo much! hehe! and yes...skooter is very cute...hehe. thanks for being my bossum buddy. "his eyes upon your face..."