the weekend wasn't so bad. I expected it to be a lot better. Friday...what did I do friday? Oh, I worked, that was a joy. Saturday was cleaning camp. gah. I usually really like band, but she really is going over the top. It was pretty fun though. mmm, I'm so sick of everything. But, of course my life is so perfect that I can't complain. ...oh bother... other such things happened which arne't worth writing here. I like to keep the good things in. well, this time. Malcolm was down because of his mum again. watching him slip through my fingers really sucks, what can you do? Landen stood up for me and I was really complimented. I wanted to cry right there. He told malcolm I was precious. It was neat. me and landen, we have something special. I love him with all my heart. I got home and we talked on the phone for a bit. He's so nice to talk to. I hate my pestimistic attitude about it all. I feel as if I'm preparing myself. hey, I mightas well live and learn. like the quote in harry potter. Can't sit around and wait for the bad to come. anyways, its good. I feel bad about his mum situation. I'm probably making it all worse. The free spirited girl in his life. It's my calling. I spent the whole rest of the night watching tv. I enjoyed it, just like I thought I would. I watched crocodile hunter with preston. He was in Antartica. I love animals so much. this morning I went to the morning devo. I met Elder Hales! how amazing. He got me through. I was truely touched and I felt motivated to be better. I love this. after me and bree took a quick nap and went to stake conference. we took turns sleeping and rubbing eachother's backs. afterwards we took a 3 hour nap. When I was leaving her mom said she was really glad I came over to help bree. wow. I love our friendship. I guess since we have so much drama withour friends we're so mellow with eachother. I dunno, it's neat. I'm feeling so sick again. feeling like a horrid person. I want to just cry and snuggle. man oh man. but, I made a promise and I'm going to stick to it. I don't want to go to school at all tomorrow. meh. I'm going to barf. I hate being sick.