woo, I feel weird. he's gay...what else is new. I thought I could count on him...to think I had a poster of him hanging over my bed. I loved him... tragedy. I was in the shower and the doorbell rang...then it rang again, then the phone rang...gah! parents need to tell me they're leaving me alone. I finaly answered the door and there was this old man. He walked right in and to our air conditioner, why did he even ring? man oh man... I'm supposed to go to bear lake today with my family, but I don't think I will. I want to go, but I want to bring a friend...hint. but, yeah... I don't think I will stay long if I do go because I have to work tomorrow night. my family is staying until friday morning. wooo...home alone? yes! I could clean the house! yeeha! I wanted to take colby to work today so I could stop by malcolm's house, but I discovered that I was smelly... yestorday we went to a movie, with the 3 girls too. why didn't I hold his hand? why do I make it so hard, soon I'll drive him away, why does he keep coming back? I really can offer that kid absolutly nothing...man oh man...what does he see in me>? I'll never know. The night before kaylee and taina and him were over. He was setting off fireworks. after he set one off he ran over to me and put his arm around me. mmm.... and in the process pushed kaylee over. wow, it's been crazy. last night the four of us burried our time capsul. it was sure special...haha... tanaya is leaving tomorrow, it's pretty sad. mmm...nothing much to say. oh the trek was AWESOME!!!! I played iwht the maxfields the whole time. me and dallan are pretty tight. he even has a nick name for me...kir-ky. "yooooohoooo-Kir-ky!" yeah, he's crazy. it was a really awesome experience, I loved the feeling at sweet water. I got to carry ali across, it was awesome. by then we all could really feel the spirit, it was...sweet. yeah...we even went to church on sunday up at martin's cove. we wore our pioneer clothes, itwas sweet, we sure did stand out. we sluffed the last meeting and slept on the grass. It was nice. Jill and Amber said me and dallan looked like two dead pioneer kids. we were sprawled out on the grass next to eachother, mmmm. anyhoo...