Dear sitdiary, Today is Sunday, and I love Sundays. Me and Ali were going to go up together to do testimonies, but we never made it. She was so nervous and preston even wanted to come with us too! But, we never made it up. I told her next month I'd go with her. mmm. I felt really happy waking up on my broken bed. I was clutching to the side so I wouldn't fall off, but I felt good. mmm, and It's amazing how good I felt. I layed there for 2 hours just thinking. It's good to think . I think if I went to bed at a reasonable hour I could wake up and think for a while. Life is going well. So well infact that it scares me. Oh, Diary, Change is in the air once again. mmm, but this time I'm going to embrace it and discover what my Heavenly Helper is trying to teach me. In the end we're all in his hands, I might as well trust in him now. Last night I watched Tuck Everlasting. I think I'll watch it tonight too. It's a beautiful movie. True-ly. I never want to grow up. Isn't it interesting how our lives are based around our death? I mean, we say we'll do so much before we die...but, What if for once I could live like there was no death. Or, rather live like my time to leave was...tomorrow?! I think I would play a lot more. haha. Or fall in love. OR do exactly what I'm doing right now. but, I figured out I really am like a little kid. Maybe everyone around me don't think so. But, everyone around me aren't me...so ha! I've been looking at things differently. I know the world isn't so sugarcoated as I sometimes see it, but hey! It's nice... "Don't be afraid of death [winnie] Be afraid of the unlived life." you know it! If I were to die tomorrow... why are my friends so sad? man oh man...we're flying.