Oh, charm me! I won't dare say it's perfect, but it's life! Blissful, Joyful, Butt-lovely LIFE! And everyday I feel like I get...better. The only thing I can do is become better than myself, that's all that matters. I think I was blessed with this thirst to learn. I don't necissarily like to study or test, but I love love love to learn. I love the feeling I get in some classes that really interest me. I feel almost like I'm lapping up the sweetest, clearest water. The water Grandpa and I hiked up to just to drink. Now spin in this blissful, winter-spring day. Seriously, I was waiting for daisies to pop out of the ground. haha..."...Like Daisies!" bah hah! Do you think what makes you different makes you beautiful. I think some people fear beauty. It's not vain to think you are beautiful. Beauty isn't like that, it can't possibley sum up to vainity in anyway. Yet, I fear it too. hmmm. "Gotta move on from whats breaking your heart, don't let your life pass you by!" Yap. I got someone grounded from me. Kinda sad, but somewhat hilarious. I never knew I had such power. "taking the journey, enjoying the ride. Be true to yourself, let your heart be your guide." Anyhoo, my day was okay. It had it's ups and downs. school was alright. GAh, but I never talked to the counselors about scholarships...dang it! How am I going to school!? AFter school was interesting. Aubs and I talked for a while. I love her. Everyone needs a frienship like ours. I feel that way about other friends of mine, but Aubs has this place in my heart. I guess its from stuff weve been through. Kinda like Sara and I. The neighborhood girls... I tried to take a nap and ended up watching crap on tv. Talked to kayls bree and natalie. Oh natalie! It was blissful, we haven't talked in a while. She's coming up to USU in the fall too. I would stay for her too. How I love my friend. She's a woman of power, true power. one of my heros. I hope she's doing alright. Then I went to mutual with ali and jasmine. Wow, that was sure interesting. The priests were in charge. yikes. my respect for scott when down a bit when he yelled at some little kid. man...It was fun though. We played volly ball. I talked to justin for a while, he's so cool. He's incharge of the deacons and he's only 19! he leaves in march on his mis, he's ready. we're getting to be better friends, and he said he definetly wants to do stuff with me before he leaves. hey, I don't need all the highschool boys to notice me if these pre-mi's do! woo! which reminds me. MAtt informed me that our date can't be a date anymore because he can't drive. I guess we're just giong with a group of friends but he'll still come pick me up. He can't drive because he'll be on crutches! I'm so excited for this weeked! Matt friday and Kaylee and I on saturday, I hope! Kaylee and I haven't played in so long. we've drifted. It's because I'm insanly jealous of her. she's so pretty. inside and out. I understand how it can ruin friendships. I miss you, you brat! Hopefull we'll be able to go to the movie because I made sure I didn't make any plans for that night. I just want to be us again. I really don't think it's boys, maybe I'm in denial...but I don't think so. She's everything I'm not, but I think now I rather learn from her instead of try to be her. I can be me now, I'm not so scared anymore of myself. Anyhoo, I'm going to go pop some melotonin so I can actually sleep. ta. speaking of boys...MAlc charmed me today. I like him...a lot...Just the way he shows he cares about me.