mmm I should be studying for my chem test tomorrow. not to sound pestimistic, but I know I'm going to fail it. I hate failing in school. getting nothing higher than a c. then about half of my peers just cheat their way through... I told mum I was just wating for Karma to walk in. hahaha! when I get the full scholarship... naa... no one gets a scholarship for being honest. man oh man... I'll got to Africa and join the peace corpse. hey, I'll be doing something good for human kind. and they don't have to have good grades. just...the need to love and be loved. sigh. It was a good day. talked to landen today. gah, I feel like such a brat when I talk to him. I alwasy talk about myself. and...so and so. grrr, I must be frusterating I'm sorry. what matters? Lauren...is...gah... man oh man, I hate being pushed around. I need to eat. and study for chem. and pray that tomorrow will be better.