eh It was a sluggish day. I walked to school. Too lazy to call Trevor, scared to call Sara and/or Derek...so walked. It was lovely! I think the best part of this day. I walked in my jammies with my clothes in my backpack. Then I realized I forgot an undershirt so I had to go back. I walked in right when the bell rang. lame. took my state test in DE. failed it. heh. SO I GET to come in very early tomorrow morning to take it again. lame test. Everyone else passed it. stupid...grrrr. I hate that part of me a lot. I need something to keep me on my feet. then went to second hour (bliss) and floated around in the essense of a lovely boy. and changed and felt kinda uplifted. took a test in that class too, heh, prolly failed it. I didnt study enough. gah. um...went to seminary and read my BofM...uplifted a bunch. I wish I could remeber again...I feel so down. I need sleep. Zack wrote me a note though, that made me sooooooooo happy! so, haha... went to lunch, almost got the guts to sit by Alladin. Didnt do it. so we looked like an idiot loner sitting all alone. um... 4th hour was the worst. I remebered how much I hated how much I wasnt having the best of times in drumline. my last time to shine in the PIT... they don't understand how much pit isnt the drama class. sometimes I want to kill em. gah... last night was the competition. It could of been a lot better. I miss the way I used to like drumline... so, I cried while listening to the tapes. and was cranky because adam ran me over with 5th bass. grrrrrrrrrr. need sleep. I"ve been so down. eh.... just today though, it will get better. I"ve come here to vent my frustrations. I hate the fact that I don't have ...the place I belong. I guess I never belonged really anywhere. but, yeah... heh... just I have no peopel I really hang out with. I've got my kaylee...and we play...but she's got her friends. and Kacean and me... lvoe her to death, but we dont get a long a lot. either I'm in a bad mood or she is. and I feel awkward around bree and her friends. "I walk a lone" cousin has a boyfriend and a half...so...mmm no more jo-jo. so, I'll prolly go to the parade with my family like I did last year. ugh...!!! oh...hold that thought hot boy standing in my kitchen! wow DARN! he's married... anyhoo... that was embarresing... haha!