Why doesn't the world just stop...when it should. IT just keeps going and never stops. Times like these you wonder how/why people still keep going. ...And then we realize it will be okay. I'm coming home. Coming home to a jon schmidt concert. oh bliss. I was going to take kaylee, but I can understand why she can't come. me and my brother are going. this will be good for us. We need to spend time together before he leaves. I wish I could say he got a mission call...aye...but he's going to Montana to work at Yellow Stone! I'm so excited for him, this is so good for him. There's not internet or tv there and I think he may die. I'm so excited for him! ...And you just keep playing for me Jon... Maybe I'll take my mum with my extra ticket. haha. I could call up malcolm, but I'm trying to stay on his parents good side, hopefully to them I don't exist?! how could someone play so...Heavenly? These are my angels. I really hope Kaylee is doing okay. I wish I was theree with her. And I missed My dad's and Sara's B-day. goobers. Bree's is Tomorrow, but she won't be in town either. my present isn't really anything compared to what she gave me. But, usually my presents are never as good. Hey, they're from my heat, my cheap poor humble heart. haha. Sara and he better like their presents. booogers. I should be packing, mum left me here so I would. haha. like I would. Last night I went to a priest and Laural activity for Amy And Todd's stake. hahaha! the boy I met on Sunday was there. He's a nut case. I also sat with a girl from their ward. We saw this really hot boy and stared at him for most of the night. me and he bonded. but, this boy from their ward is such a tease! I like him! I had to find a gummy worm in oreo crumbs blindfolded...but instead I just ate the cookies...my team lost. This kid asked me if I liked chocolate, he said If I didnt I should "go back to Utah!" jerk. oh, the first thing he said to me when he saw me last night was,"Why are you still here?" I just glared at him and smiled sweetly. we really did get a long. Amy said some people thought we were cute. Apparently he's not nice to anyone. Wow, I'm honored. we'll have one of the relationships that strictly insist of us making fun of eachother brutally. I love it! well, anyhoo, his name is Mikey. la. I'm excited to get home. It's so hot here...and I'm breaking out like mad. ...And the world keeps turning. jon makes me feel alive. wait, he lets me feel alive. yes. In my mind I have a vision of the person I want to become. The person I know I am...so deep inside. I miss Mr. Bedont. I wish when I see him that I have stuff to talk about. he's so interested in people's lives...I guess I can tell him my brother got a job! It would be nice to see you again. I'm thankful for people who are soulfull. hmmm!