wooooo! It's a beautiful day! Spinning. Life has been so crazy latley, but I find my self very calm. I'm still medicated, that's why. I'm finaly done with all my doctor's appointments. I had...eight! Sick, but I'm done. I love my new urinologist! I have lost all personal pride, but he's made me healthy! That was a little too much information... Malc stopped by after Jo, brad and landen left on Tuesday. Oh my word. I heard his heart beat and cried. It is beautiful. We talked a little, but mostly I just layed my head on his shoulder and sighed. I love that boy. But, in a good way. He gives me wings to fly. He's my best friend. He's opened my heart to love and now letting me go. Dream big, butterfly. And he kisses my hair. IT's like... I know we're moving on. We're growing up and becoming the people we wont to be. We're seeing other people and going our own ways. But, I know it's all goign to be wonderful. I take this life one day at a time. I see mark about three times a week. We have so much fun. IT's weird, we're becoming really good friends. We watched ice princess at his house the other night. He bought me a jones soda and I gave him my sucker! Later he told me I'm funny looking from upside down, so I kicked him in the shoulder. We have fun. I always used to think that once they hit 22 they're suddenly mature. Mark...We'll leave it at that. turn around Tomorrow should be my last day of work. Agh! And I'm missing it already. I really have liked working wih Lisa these past weeks. I like it. Today though, they had to send me home. Ihaven't eaten for over 50 hours. Yeah...So I was way scatterd. Andrew laughed at me...and I almost barfed when some smelly farmers came in. Steph rang me up some chicken and I felt better. Wow... School! I'm going restless. Ive talked to a couple of my roomates. I love them so far. My roommate stephanie from washington is hilarious. We re going to get along. The other one is from hawaii and she's beautiful. Mark said it's good to have hot roommates because all the guys will be over. hmm... Yup