mmm, this weekend was so nice. The pageant went fantastically! oh my word, I havent done anything that much fun. Plus, I got to show MYSELF off. For once. (well, I am a bit of a show off...but this time it was alowed) I felt beautiful. Malcolm called right before my interview to wish me luck. Wow...I like how we're becoming. It's nothing serious...it's nothing...but...better friends. I know I sound like an indiot right now. I sound like the people I make fun of inside. heh, learn and grow. my interview was pretty good. I laughed a lot. I don't think they were impressed. Well...obviously they weren't. haha. But, I showed them who I was and I tried to be polite and...me. and then the dinner was fabbity fab fab and they gave us all necklaces and cute (crafty...ah...) hearts with hankies. It was cute. ahhh! and then crunch time came! aghghghgh I was so nervouse! mum came and tried her best to doll me up. It was no use. then the judge came in and said she would rat my hair for me. haha. I felt beautiful and I felt myself. I guess I learned that I can make myself look good. Before I have alwasy felt bad. It's all the stupid comments "you look cute, brat!" mmm. so, I've always been afraid. aghghg, me and ana and mellissa (one of the winners) practiced in the primary room for a while. oh! and then when I went on! oh my! it was like...a total rush!I totaly struted and I loved it. and my speech was okay. agh. then when we were waiting for the judges the lady sang to us "I hope you dance" or whatever it's called. ahhh, I loved it. mmm...for once I let myself go. Today was the percussion ensamble thing. I totaly sucked at the new part. haha. heh. the way home was the best! we were all crammed in the car...we danced and sang. and we found little ceasars. (after an hour of seaching!) we sat on the grass and Emily finaly figured out kaylee wasn't there. haha....she's like "um...where's kaylee?" The Voyager! those boys are crazy. and jake was himself. I fell in love with swifty and slept on Thomas' shoulder. yay. then...me and lauren went to jamba juice and talked for a while. then...I wnet on my DATE!!! oh...journal...he's a STUD! Fuzz was with my group and it was great. we went rock climbing...I'm good at it! It's a pain in the butt, but I'm good! maybe I can beat malcolm at that...I highly doubt it...jerk. then we went to his house and watched a movie. I snuggled pretty close to him. woo! we watched The Haunting old school. it was hilarious. mmm...he's cute. he's leaving in July and told me we definetly need to hang out before he leaves. it was just really awkward saying goodbye to his sister, who is my age. haha. Me and her used to be best friends. then he hugged me...mmmm.... now mum is reading something...and I'm...not paying attention obviously because I'm typing this. I'm a horrible person. mmm....he was just...and it wasn't a pity date for either of us. and...wow. And, I liked it. he was...really cute. mmm... yay, tomorrow I can sleep in all I want! yes yes eyes yesyesyesyesyes! and the pageant is finaly over! yesyesyesyeyes! oh journal...he was really cute. but he's my friend's...brother! I acutally moved my hand down by his...then realized who exactly he was. wow. wow... tomorrow Is Sunday. day of Rest. finaly. rest.