Today went really well, I really liked it. It's refreshing to not have math or chemistry. I feel...almost guilty for not having hard classes. haha, well soon I'll be taking botany and algebra online. hey, maybe this tri I'll go above average. the only class I really have to worry about is english with dyer. haha...everyone is in that class! I'm was excited! It ends up dyer didnt only know my older sister and brother but also my brother in law, which means I'm doomed for life because he's the biggest oof ever. first hour I have history. I love toph. and a lot of nice/fun poeople are in that class. Devin is in that class too. muahahahah! and I sit between kyle and Ami, I love those two. 2nd hour me and kaylee went to the office to change my 2 hour because I was booted out of algebra 2. Megan W. made me feel better, she sucks at math too. yay! I decided to take ceramics. oh boy! so, I walk in there and I see kace...and then mr. cute boy. yesyesyes. mmm, It was like re-acting the part on never been kissed when Guy walks in... "...Billy?"] haha...well a girl can dream. I felt retarded because I couldnt find the seats. Malcolm gave me his. the teacher said that was very nice of him. haha! then a boy behind me said "dang it, I should of done that!" ...ha... I'm going to love that class... then there's band. which is lame as always. If jerry would just stop singing all the time...gah I miss bedont. lunch is alright. my seminary C class pretty much rocks. bree and shalese and margo and mr. peacock! wahoo...and all his fan club are there too. woo... yes... Then after school I stayed for my lessons with Clark. I talked to landen a bit. apparently made him mad. I guess I have that affect on people. either love me or hate me. hmm, their problem. I hated that kace just stayed behind and yelled at him more. goodness. I'm not totaly handicap and I can take care of myself. that made me angry. and the fact that he blew up on me. whatev. I tried telling him that I was joking...but...I gave up... I'm a tease, a maneater... well, we all have our callings... so, for my lesson I was really mad. Clark really liked that side of me. He said I can be happy and cheerfull when I'm not drumming. It felt so good. He was amazed with me. he kept stopping and going "wow...Kirsten!" wahooooo! so, I guess I'll just yell at someone everytime I drum...or whatever. he told me that the pad was what was making me mad and I can take all the anger out on it. we were working on my diddles and double beats and such...oh journal...it felt so ooooo GOOD. I knew bedont is proud at least. Clark made me yell "I can do it!" a bunch of times. ohh, clark should be the one getting me ready for the pageant, not whatever her name is. It was good to see him smile. um...talked to spence...he said he needed to ask someone to jr. prom. oh....guess who doesnt have a date!?!?! I really want to go...but... I'm really not that excited about it. Dating has been a flop ever since this year started. Its just so awkward. either the boy likes me way too much or vise versa...but I guess he wouldnt ask me out if he didn't want to... hmmm... well, I mean...yeah. Dating isnt fun anymore. I guess nothing can compare to Greg playing footsies with me in the back seat of the mini van. *sigh* my dream is suddenly he'll say "kir, you get snare" blow your socks off. I hate how the world sees me. just the pushover. the stupid girl who laughs too loud and does anything her friends ask of her. it feels good to rebel. it feels good to be busy and to try. I think it's kind of good thing...I don't have to spend money on a dress... I've got to study. I hate that I wont let anyone in. no one knows. ... I'm getting sick again...because of my own stupidy. IT's like I don't allow myself to enjoy life. anyhoo... seminary was the best though, he showed a movie. and it was good to see. im going to like this class a lot. now spin...and never stop. I like him and he likes me... "you're just jealous that we're young and in love." I'm afraid. scared...never ready. lets roll. "...and fall in love whenever you can..." oh crap, I need to hang my clothes up!!! I hated how he yelled at me today. but it felt good to walk away. I need someone I can tease. mum says I just need to be nicer to the boys... okay...so JD! he deserves it! if he's going to tell me i have a huge zit on my nose...I'm going to tell him hes ugly. it's just the way I work. If he does something to upset me...I'm going to tell him. case is closed. now it's just the girls I have to work on... oh joy... I hate girls. the moodiness...and the drama... its like...we can't be content with who we are.... l;jszho;giasglj;vak;ljdglkakjdfl;kajsdfl;j just breathe... You've got the most stumbling blue eyes I've ever seen...