in summary of what i just wrote...yet it earased....sitdiary should really fix that. gah! anyhoo... I miss bedont, but I'm happy again. I'm sad he's gone, but glad he was here. I really miss him. and i respect him so much. i love him. and I'm glad what bingham said um, i wrote my tidbit about the boy i like. he's very cute. and I enjoy his pressence. he doesnt touch me. I didn't have to cuddle with him to make him like me. I'd like to think it was...just me... but...I dont know. he talks to me though. says something funny. or shows off his ability to bounce mallets off his head. he let me borrow his sticks...while he used the ends of his mallets to drum. he's sweet and funny. and he doesnt hang around me. he told me in a blunt way that he likes me. and I liked it. he juggles...and he's refreshing. I go to class for him. I smile a lot when he's around. he was there for me...like my really close friends were when we found out about bedont. in conclusion... I like him! and taina seems to approve. lol... I miss that girl. I will see her in april! im so excited. I got my package from amy. she sent me supier cute sweaters and earings and pictures of her and todd. she wrote "when I'm depressed I go shopping!" and also "remember people are stupid, so just try to be happy despite everything" I love my older sister. supposedly people have been texting her to see if she knew anything about bedont. man oh man. that's when she decided I needed to get out of the valley. man oh man. even if I knew I wouldnt tell anyone. it's no ones business. and I hate the fact that everyone (including me for a while) believed the retarded rumors about him. I yelled at lauren for it. I told her she doesn't have to know. I have to make dinner tonight and study for chem and watch ICE SKATING!!!!! I really hope irina gets gold! "I am a wunderkind...I am a princess on the way to my throne" mmm....its my life, and im only young for another year... I dont want to waste my time on overdramatic...ly...nessing...evrything. just spin and never stop. that's why I think drugs are stupid. (ahem, dear friend of mine) "destined to reign" I AM a WUNDERKIND let's just say I'm on my way. oh ice skating is on now! yay! bliss... he's got the most stumbling blue eyes I've ever seen...just hold my hand and lets run!