man oh man. I had a dream that I went to lessons with Clark and Bedont was there. I ran to him. :)...he was talking to someone's parents. I wouldn't let mum talk to him. I didn't want her to ruin the moment. she just doesn't understand. Last night I talked to Amy. she said "that's a bummer" I love the conforting ways of my older sister. she told me she wished wick came back for me...:). she's sending a "get better" gift on tuesday. supposedly she found it in the mall and knew I would love it. haha. If I wasn't failing chemistry I could go to pheonix next week. darn...chemistry ruins everything! I love my sister oh so...though. I told her I still have Clark. and sara madsen. (who scares the crap out of me!)She told me how jeremy took over after wick left. she said it will still be awesome. She also told me I can NOT quit no matter what. haha. we love in different ways. I really do hate band class. actually right now I hate everything. haha. I'm ANTI I guess. muah (love you kaylee!) I really dread going to class because of certain people. Taylor wont even beat on me anymore. mmm, john mcdanial. Amy will probably post something. I hope he gives me more encouraging words. I love my superstar friend. his music enlights me. like jon schmidt. (ahahah his concert is today! guess who is NOT going...shame) I'm glad I have lessons today. I've practiced a lot since wednesday. and I acutally do play better when I'm under stress. and the whole fact that I realize they told me I could the whole time. It's almost silly how Heavenly Father fixes me for the right moments. he prepares me I guess. man oh man. "my God loves broken things" now spin and never stop... the day the world stopped turning... he played for me. the one time I smiled the whole day was when he walked in. or I guess when landen was beating for me on my vibes. I smiled too. okay, well maybe I smiled a bit more. I can't help but smile. it's what I do...alright. man oh man. and it will be a bright day. he played jon schmidt and smiled at me when he was done. muah. we realized the bell rang five minutes earlier...we both left.... jljdflajsdlfjasldiuoeurjljd I hope they're doing alright.