Tonight... Is the concert. I feel almost embarresed. Josh came up to me and asked me why I wasn't in A. I told him not to ask me. I mean... well, being in B boosts my confidence. Except when A people are there. whatever, they don't matter. Just me, and my drum. ""tonight I'm going to give you all my heart can give" oh, Journal. It's christmas time! and Tomorrow is joseph Smith's birthday! oh, sigh, I love him so. hmm... I bore my testimony today. and I had this feeling since. it's ...undiscribable. I told them I know now. I know It's true. mmm, I figured out something. I compared it to somehting else. I'm like a fisherman. I can catch the fish just great! I'm excellent and luring them in. but... I don't know what to do after that. "Don't you know you're everything to me?" and... Devin Seamons has a girlfriend. I liked him. I had him. It died. but, maybe subconsiously I'm helping myself. people that don't matter. "I bet it makes you laugh" haha, life is a laugh. my life is a laugh. it's so entertaining. the randomness I call everyday life. Spencer talked to me today. we drank at the drinking fountains together. I like him. :) but, I don't have to make a big deal out of it. blaaa. anyhoo, shcool was good. boring. teachers were very merciful, and I am thankful. Yestorday Hardy said he knew I was concerned about my grade so he gave me full credit on a very late assingment. mmm I liked it when it was just me and him. It made so much more sense. we both ended up falling asleep almost on the back table. so he let me go. hmm. hmm, sliegh bells. um, walker was an idiot today. I kind of feel bad for him. I always do for the idiots out there. Seminary was great! being with people who love the gospel. hmm... so, It's been good. Me and Andy hugged today. I told him he was so cute and he laughed. He really is. I know love is out there. oh, it is everywhere. I'm missing the old lauren. but I love her anyways. she says we're different. I love her. courage see me through. ah, I've got the flutters! hmm... I'm so glad I'm not in a complicated situation. like a stream. laid back, mellow. don't worry about a thing 'cuz every lil thing is gonna be alright. love you. Kirsten. p.s. I looked up just as he did. and we smiled. I find that...you're... abnormally...attractive.