I had a sucky day. I woke up happy though. that's a first. and I got up on time! I had a dream that landen told me he kissed kaylee. which is probably likely. gah. (like I care) there was this girl (I wont say her name) but she practically invited herself at my house! gahhh! noo! So I freaked and tried coming up with excuses. Finaly I ran away. I spent all of lunch hiding for her because I saw she was looking for me. I'm so passive. instead of telling her no...I just hide then she paged me to the office.! heh! I owe Aubree so big. she went and told her i had to go home. man! I love her! I hid in the drama room and talked with tannin and stacey while waiting for aubree. Landen again was surrounded by girls who adore him. gosh its just like 9th grade all over again. Sitting by him. stroking his hair. gross. Dont yoou know it was only cute when I did it?! man oh man. Well...apparently he's moved on. man... Matt raised his eye brows at me. thats something to be happy for. and he smiles real big at me when he walks by. I was at my locker and he was strutting down the hall. I felt like I was in the 7th grade all over again! what's with these flashbacks of middle school?! man oh man. my date! I havent said more than 20 words to him my whole life. I attempted to talk to him. but all I got was a "hi.." mmm! so...I have no money for the date! or band fees i owe 150 at the end of this month. like 6-7 days away! gah! I'm failing photo! which is humanly impossible. until now of course. I dont have a camera and he never has one for me to borrow. tonight is PTC which I know I'm failing about all my classes. so why go?! I'm destressed and mad. and hurt and feeling stupid. I'm so angry. me and landen havent really talked since 2months ago. I havent talked to matt since...the date in november. Sara commented that all the guys i like are too popular and good for me. so... I totaly give up on dating. landen is a jerk face who i cant get over fast enough. but its way too late for me and him. so no bothering trying to work something out. he's too happy being with all the senior girls that fawn over him. I dont know why...he's not that cute...*glares* I didnt want to come home. landen said he was going to eat lunch with me. but played battle ship with dallan instead. gah!!! tahnkgoodness there is no school tomorrow.