Man oh man. Today everything was due. It was also the solo and ensemble thing. Gah. We did so bad, all of us! That's coming from an optimistic person too. Oh, I don't feel good. "Those three words I said too much But not enough." Malcolm did awesome! Aw, I love watching him play because I acutally really smile! Except I'm kind of bummed. I waited an hour for him and he turned around and said he'd maybe call me later. I guess we wont be doing homework tonight. Man...Well, His family is more important anyways...I won't make a big deal out of something so stupid. I told him it was no big deal because I'm sick anyways. Dissapointed. I hate being home. :) I went to the doctor today. woo... I love my doctor though! She's straight to the point, and that's definetly not what me and my mother are. I wish i could say my mom is worse. My doc is trying to figure out what is really wrong with me. She gave me two options. Either my urinary tract infection (disgusting, I know!) was never cure from last fall. It now could be up in my kidneys killing those. My insides are like an old womans! It's not fair! I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, and I'm not sexually active! boo. OR I'm lactose...I'm routing for that one! That way I'll only have to take a pill two times a day for the rest of my life. Instead of never really curing my kidneys. Oh my... The day I am healthy I will shout to the world! ham... ? hmm. I went to seminary though! oh joyous day! we're honoring eachother for valentine's day! Mum said my boy called last night. She said he picked me. He said He thinks I'm really cool. Yay! Bro krebs also said someon chose me instead of being assigned to me. I am thought of! I'm liked! So my person is Ben. I'm soo soo soo excited because I always wanted to get to know him. I'm so excited for this. Krebs said it will be awesome. The boys are getting us roses. aw, I love my class so much! Other than seminary I didn't go to school. I went to an early morning rehearsal...and went back to bed until noon. Maybe I'll just go to bed now. Maybe Malc will call. He'll say, "I think it's too late...But, good night princess" My happiness will not depend on a boy. no matter how cool or neat or good looking or nice or sweet or spiritual...or...everything a girl can dream of and more. oh my... I have almost let myself go. It feels great! ahem. please help me find what's wrong with me. please fix it.