I'ts about time to update. woo, guess what? I finaly feel like myself again. This is a good thing. woo. I realized I'm under too much stress. obviously. well, yeah, it was good to know. I was taught to have random outburst of yelling and I'll be better. I bottled it all up and finaly exploded on the closest person, malcolm. well, it was really bothering me what he was doing! Everytime he gets a text now I just turn my head and talk to someone else we're with. Saves me. what a beautiful life! *dances* A very good weekend. hm! I realized last night that I am infact not cool at all. Hey at least in my area of friends I...have friends. yeah... I had a blast at the game. Me and cydne beat on eachother, oh I love that girl! I can beat on her and she doesn't get mad! And me and Marcie are getting closer, it's a blast. Skooter was there, haha. I was being stupid so I tried to pull the hot librarian off while I kissed the air. His eyes got big and he said, "Kiwi, I have a mission to go on!" I said: "Don't worry, I'll wait for you." It was interesting. we had a nice conversation...finaly something not awkward with him. odd. Malcolm told me stories about girls he used to like. I was highly uninterested. He wondered why he had told me he liked amber on our homecoming date. I don't understand him. I've been trying to be nice about him and misty. I really don't care if he likes her. I think it's kinda cute. It's really funny when he tells me he's going to "go flirt with Misty now." whatever. He can like anyone he wants. It just sucks when they all go for my best friend. well, we know what comes out of that... After the game a bunch of us were going to go to Malcolm's house for a movie. Landen locked his keys in his car and so we stayed at sky view with him. It was kind of awkward. Landen was frustrated and he didn't want to be around anyone. So I spent the night with kevin and malcolm. we goofed around on the field. I stayed until Landen's mom came for him. I didnt want landen to get kidnapped. Malcolm took me home. hmm! we got about half way to my door when I dropped all my stuff and grabbed him. It was a nice hug. One of those nice ones where it's okay if it lasts a little long. It was really nice and muchly needed. (I'm still floaty about it!) I got in and me and Sara talked in my room fro about an hour. I miss her. She's the friend that no matter what she'll be there. It's nice. We layed in my bed for a long time until I was falling asleep. She tucked me in and left. I'm glad we got to talk. Today was the first 2 sessions of General Conference! I really like it. I like the feeling I get when I hear those people speak. President Hinkely spoke about how my church is growing. It is awesome! I thought a lot about churches and sincerity. I realized how much of a good example Cydne is to me. She loves her church and she's open to share anything about it. It's neat. We can both share something that we care about. After conference I dolled myself up and ran to Big J's. I must have just missed Malcolm because when I got home he had a milkshake for me. The best milkshakes! Pumpkin Pie! ahgahgahg! I felt bad because he had been there a long time while I was gone. I like his little surprises. He also got me a twix yestorday to pass my music off. gah, that was stressful. I felt like an idiot. but, whatever. Landen called today and he wants to do something since we didn't get to last night. yay! I feel like I have friends again! It's bree's last show tonight. I hope she's not too bummed tomorrow. I think I'm going to make her watch conference wiht me tomorrow. This is such a long entry. ha. I'm glad jo took me in thursday night. she's alwasy taking care of me. It was nice. oh joy. I have to work soon. boo! but I still have that shake in the freezer! so what if it was an accident...come on come on spin a little faster... I won't say it no no. I miss kaylee...It's sad when she's gone and I feel me again. I think we needed a break from eachother.