Mark and I had a discussion the other night about our ideal relationships. Hmm, now It's been on my mind a lot. childish, maybe, but I see it as just moving forward! haha. I realized I have never really thought about my relationship so much. I've come to know more of what I want and need, but not necissarily the relationship it's self. I think I'm the only girl on the planet who hasn't thought about it. hmm. I definitly want a partner. Someone who completes me. I'm finding as I'm growing up more (maturing in a nonadult/boring way)that the thought of working with someone for...forever seems quite nice and seems meant to be. destiny. supposed to be that way, you know?! I feel more ready. I think a partnership sounds quite romantic! :) I used to want to strive for my independence and individuality, but now it's not so important. I'm becoming more of my own person, instead of who exactly I feel my mum wants me to be. She's tried to raise me to be totally independent and able to take care of myself. I see that as very good, and I'm grateful for her, but now...I want to work with someone else. now, I'm not saying I'm going to go out and get married to the first person who comes along. That's stupid! But, I feel more prepared. And I feel good about that. Growing up isn't so bad. I decide how it's going to be. Well, to an extent. Relationships are how I make them. I definitly want to put my whole heart in it. My faith is increasing more and more every day. I'm taking more leaps and leaning more upon my Heavenly Father. I feel his peace and constant comfort and strength. He's on my side and he's cheering me on! Yeah, that feels good. Back to the partnership and feeling ready. I talked to Liz on Saturday about life. I told her I sometimes feel like I'm not progressing at all, but more of quite the opposite. She told me to run away from what is holding me back and run fast! Oh, liz. she knows me better than probably anyone else. she looked me sternly in the eyes and told me I am a daughter of God and I have so much potential to bless otheres. She doesn't want my light to go out. Liz is special. she's different. she's intune! Yeah, so it helped me a lot to talk with her. She asked me if I think I'm ready to get married. I look at my mom with her disapproving look, turned back to liz and said, "yes." she smiled and mom frowned. She said she didn't want to see what happened to Amy to happen to me. Liz piped up and said that's not really possible. Amy and I are quite different people. I had some quests come in asking about the internet. I liked the way they worked together. They supported each other and pretty much finished each other's sentences. She supported what he did when he came in the back looking for a router. Oh, to have a partnership like that. Later they called in the front office and told me they had accidently stolen a pillow from another hotel. They wanted me to call the hotel and tell them they had the pillow and they would be returning it. haha! Later they called back and told me they realized they hadn't stolen a pillow. The man said, "we're just trying to be honest!" Oh, dear! I love people!I'm going to have that. So, I'm at work again...as always. I'm pretty sure when I'm done working here I'll look back and just laugh at all the experiences I've had here. Cops taking down a guest. They drunk man asking me to buy a lighter. The jerk man yelling at me and telling me I have no integrety. the house maids laughing at me the time I tried explaining how to make a path in the snow. The master key never working. Yeah...good good times! I have been told that I need a hobby... Maybe everyone's right. Liz is getting me the numbers for some crises centers so I can volunteer there. She wants me to be fully aware of what happens in abusive relationships. :) Today, I'm going snowshoeing with Nate! This shall be interesting!