sing out! woah. my friend is in town, im way excited. we hung out tonight with her old guy friends from logan high. they're...nice. haha. But, we didnt talk a lot. and when they almost killed us they asked natalie if she was okay.. hmmm.. well, yeah. Ben was way cute. holy man. hmmm...man oh man. I need Bree more than ever now. she's the only one who understands the full story of my life. wow. so I sent her a wave that I need her. she should of gotton it. wow... today was pretty good at band camp. got in trouble, again. ha. but we played so clean today on the perc feature! yaya! I wish...that I could maybe see that they care about it. I mean, I'm sure they do. but, I find my self wondering why I'm even there. Still bashed for not getting on line. I know, I need to get over it. I love pit and all, but its time to move on. really. then... I dont have any parts of the pit features. ballad or closer. lame. man... but, I love it. I think? I feel lame. I had to keep telling myself that a real nice guy would love a virtous woman. ...hmmm... I need something to get my mind off things. this book suggested a celeb. crush. hmmmm... how Lame am I? Oh, sad day. the creepy guys like me. hey, but at least the creepy guys see me...for me...? well, thats not the real problem. actually i dont know what my problem is. too much thinking. about college. band boys. life. I'm sick of thinking, wake up and dream.