I want a COOKIE! MMM...mmm... so, I made my 'souper bowl" cup of noodles, knowing that i would never finish it. I decided I'll put a label on it that says "comunity bowl of noodles" the fam will eat it up. so...wow... I decided spencer's new name is "my size prince" odd, he is my size...2 inches taller than me. and his hands are my size too...anyways...just a thought. He laughed at me today, as skooter just shook his head at me. Does he like me? right... I'm so odd, now listening to christmas music! its happy! yay! happiness! "make my wish come true all I want for christmas is you!" so...I had a hot moment I'm dying to tell bree so bad. I've been calling her all day...well, ever since I got home, but she wont answer her flippin phone. dang girl. I have to tell her about my hot devin moment. my now full time crush. At lunch I was sitting alone and he came and sat two tables away, alone of course. then got up and moved. why did you move? then I sat with Amy and kaylee and they warned me when he was behind me so I had perfect time to look up and say hi. like it wasnt obvious. and he said hi and smiled nicely. I asked him if he was working today and he just turned around and just smile all...alladin crookedly-hotly-want-your-bod-like and walked away... okay, so I dont know what that was all about and he never answered my question....but that was still WOW! I'm deprived. I like this nice innocent state we're in...the nothingness of it all. no drama, no gross PDA no clingyness, no tears, no fights, no, no more friends. yes, well, okay. There's seriously something wrong with me, I will hopelessly fall over someone until he likes me back...maybe because I feel smooshed and cluttered. maybe, its just the boys that like me. really, its not all I think about? I ran into chemistry late and distressed. I really did try to get ontime...but Matt introduced me to the kids he peer turtors. lucky boys, they get to be with the most amazing child on earth. anyways! I ran to bingham and said "dude...I am so flippin confused!" and he told me not to stress out...and he explained the whole thing to me. for the second time. I'll go back tomorrow morning too. I am still shaky on the whole concept. I'm so glad we don't have band today, its so nice. but...I havent done anything! silly bree! I wanted to play with her today... mmmm... i WANT TO PLAY!